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Trinity

 A mind, boggled with conflicting desires and a blurry path ahead is what i have. Here i lay, looking upon the night sky, filled with colorful stars and distant galaxies. Upon this cliff which i lay, i feel good. There is no need for desires or ideas. No need for a path to tread. Yet i know that this cannot continue. Some time soon, sun shall rise again and this appreciated isolation will come to an end. I dread the coming of the day. Ideas and desires filling my head. Not knowing which ones to choose and repeating the same day over and over again. Guidance is what i seek but i see no one and nothing to take my hand and lead me across the land. Some have the strength to guide themselves. Some never know how it feels to be "lost." Is this a virtue that i lack or am i simply made to roam? An abundance of questions comes to mind yet i cannot answer any. I sit up to look at the village i live. Candles in the windows and torches midst the centre sit still in the windless night. Co...

Half

6th April - 03:00  Something along the lines of a new me. What? No, not new. Just me. Me? Let me try to explain the thoughts that belong to "me" as if i have any fucking idea who that is. I am isolating myself and growing lonelier with each passing day. It feels like it's a bad thing but i am yet to make up my mind about it. However the dread and the ever-looming impending sense of doom still lingers around. I feel harmonic. As if i am more than one song, trying to come out. All of them crashing towards my lips yet none comes out. A stasis, if you will. Yes, that is rather fitting. I am where i have always been my entire life. I exist in a state of stasis, surrounded by crafted sorrow and melancholy. Well, it's either that or the impending sense of doom is the one making me feel this way. Then again, here i am, spilling my thoughts and writing. I cannot possibly complain. I had forgotten being myself. I had never even realized that. Why? Did i unwillingly suppress thi...